As much as love returning to the UK I also find myself
tinged with sadness for as soon as my feet hit British soil I’m hit with the
feeling that I no longer truly belong. This
sensation crashes over me like an unexpected wave, one that knocks my feet
out from under me and takes my breath away.
I also get the same feeling here in the US, for my British accent always sets me apart. No matter which country I'm in it’s like trying on a favorite pair of shoes only to realize that they're no longer a perfect fit. We all want to feel like we belong but I need to be ok being different, to celebrate who I am now, to discard those ill fitting shoes and maybe dance barefoot for a while.
dancing barefooot sounds like a wonderful idea.
ReplyDeleteyes, dance! i can imagine that is a tough feeling... i, for one, am very glad you here, in my life.
ReplyDeleteLove the title of your post and the way you've put what you feel into visual form. Feeling out of place is uncomfortable and unsettled. Sometimes I feel like that anywhere but home. Hope as the weeks pass the edge comes off of that for you (and Ravyn). : ) Maybe she'll ground you here a bit more....dogs don't care about accents.
ReplyDeleteI was discussing just how much an experience of England can differ depending on which part a person goes to. London can be a very demanding place with little interaction, but head to the south west or north, it is a different story.
ReplyDeleteI was chatting to an artist who moved out from London with his family a few years back. He said his children now at the local comprehensive had changed since the move and flowered.
I think people are intrinsically the same the world over. We all want the same things and have similar dreams. It is a shame some of us never realise them. Hoping you find your British feet soon!
Dance away and be yourself!!!!
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Oh yes, maybe that's what I need to do too Kathryn, kick of my shoes and go barefoot! Well, I love a british accent so be glad we're not so close, I would probably have you read to me, LOL! xo
ReplyDeleteYes, it must be disconcerting to feel that you don't belong in either home. But celebrate your "differentness", those things that make you who you are. Dancing barefoot sounds like the right remedy.
ReplyDeleteI can but try. :0)
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