'Suicide' is a word that most people talk about in hushed whispers or that some find unable to say at all. It often makes people feel uncomfortable, emotional, distressed, angry even and they try to hold it out at arms length in the hope that it won't reach out and touch them in some way.
Never in a million years did I think I would find myself seriously contemplating suicide but the excruciating pain I experienced the last couple of years brought me to my knees and had me questioning whether I could make it through one more minute let alone one more day.
Even though my pain levels have dropped significantly I still find myself creating pieces which reflect the intense pain I experienced at the height of my facial neuralgia. Almost as though it's something inside of me that I need to get out, to express in some way.
This piece depicts part of that journey of the wanting to let go . . . . . of the person I was slipping away. I have chosen to display it on the wall in my studio next to my 'Love' sign for it was love that pulled me through.
Kathryn, it really disturbs me that you experience such pain and knowing that there's nothing I can do to help except to send love. What a relief that your pain levels have dropped. I hope that medication continues to improve so that one day you have no pain at all. The pieces that you have created help one to understand something of what you are going through. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI am glad to know that you have your art as a way to express the pain and suffering that you want through. I can't imagine what that must have been like but your pieces give us a way to understand in a small way what you have endured.
ReplyDeleteThanks Brenda, I know I'm not alone in suffering through pain. Hopefully others know they are not alone.
DeleteArt in any form keeps my heart beating... The hand that reaches out is saying exactly what your heart wants. You too were participating in the August Break... I will look for your photos.
ReplyDeleteIt's a beautiful and haunting piece of art, so moving. Like Brenda, I am glad you have a way to express that pain, to get some of it out, at least. And I am beyond glad, beyond words, that you are here. Much love, lisa.
ReplyDeleteThanks Lisa, I know I'm not the only one who lives with pain but when you're going through it, experiencing it, it can feel like you're the only one. Thanks for the love. xoxo
DeleteThis is such an emotional and powerful piece. I truly am sorry to hear that you have struggled so with chronic pain. Glad you are feeling better and that you have had a chance to express what you are feeling through your creative soul.
ReplyDeleteI love how you express yourself, your pain, through art. As I wander through your blog, catching up, I can see that you are creating up a storm! So many beautiful images of art and poetry. I am so glad you are feeling some relief from your pain, my friend. xo
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