Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Scintilla Project: A Part Of Me Lost

Prompt:  Show a part of your nature that you feel you've lost.  Can you get it back?  Would it be worth it?

I heard someone say "it's time".  My breath caught in my throat as my heart pounded.  Two simple words that would forever change my life.  I wanted to shake them off like an ill fitting sweater but the more I struggled the tighter they took hold. 

My feet began to to move and I found myself inching towards the room where you lay.  There was a strange sound that seemed out of place . . . . . a death rattle filled the room, filling my heart and soul with its presence. 

I took your hand and just moments later I felt you leave.  With one last breath, you, the man who had meant the world to me were gone.  In that moment I felt ripped wide open as though there was a gaping hole right through the very core of me.  A part of me was lost that day.  Even though nine years have passed, and the hole is smaller, a part of me will remain forever lost.

9 comments:

  1. oh, this just breaks my heart.

    what words could i possibly say? sending hugs to you.

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  2. Beautifully written and expressed.

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  3. This brought back some memories for me, my step dad passed away suddenly almost 5 years ago, instead of "it's time", I hear the words, "he's gone"....my heart still isn't completely mended.

    You wrote this so beautifully Kathryn....hugs, xo

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  4. Oh ouch, Kathryn. This is exquisite in its poignancy and adds another crack to my heart. Love to you.

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  5. Given my week. This resonates. xo

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  6. They say time heals all wounds, but I think the jerk-off that came up with that never really had one to start with. SO sorry for your loss.

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  7. Heartbreaking. Your words are full of your pain and sadness. You are so brave to share this loss.

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